by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner
I need to hurry up, big time, with the writing of this second draft. Things are going well, just really slow. But the hope is that once I get out of the first chapter, things will move a lot faster.
And, yet, I’m such a perfectionist on a structural basis that I sometimes get really mad at how bad things are — at least in my own mind — and throw everything up in the air and start from scratch: even when it’s not necessary.
No one cares about any of this. No one. And, if they do care, I’m sure they’re just monitoring this blog so they can somehow steal my concept. Ugh. Everything is horrible and meh. But, you have to have hope.
I love being creative for the sake of being creative, so the key thing is just to press forward. To keep believing and to keep trying to see how far I can get with this endeavor. The thing I’ve noticed about a lot of successful people in the publishing industry is how bitter they are.
I guess I just want MY opportunity to be bitter because…I’m a success? Just being a mid-tier novelist at this point in my life would be one of the greatest events of my life. At the moment, I just have one alpha reader who finds the first draft of the novel “intriguing.”
Anyway. I have a lot — A LOT — of reading to do. Life is very short, very precious and if you don’t try to do the things you need to do you could very well just be dead before you accomplish anything and then where are you.
