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Trying To Live A More Healthy Life

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I just recently decided to give up two of my biggest vices — booze and the occasional cigar. I’ve reached an age where things start to fall apart and I’m getting a little nervous.

I know what they say that there’s nothing worse than a dry drunk, but I’m determined to go cold turkey. I’m not one of those people who wants to live forever — unless, like, the Singularity makes that a literal possibility — but I am nervous enough about my health to cut back on things that might reduce my ultimate lifespan.

My dad is still going strong as a very, very old man, so it’s at least possible that I might have a sold 20 years left in me if I just don’t fucking drink so much. At the same time, I will say I had a lot of fun drinking a lot, even though (especially in South Korea) I was known to do the occasional stupid thing because of it.

Anyway. There’s only so much I can do at this point. I just have to believe in myself and write as fast as I can and as well as I can on the thriller I’ve been working on in hopes that I might just sell it while I’m still alive instead of dropping dead before it gets published like Stieg Larsson.

A Little Nervous My Thriller Is…A Little Too Raunchy At Times

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I’ve had to make some difficult decisions with this newest version of the novel and among them is how much of the sex stuff I wrote for the previous version to keep in. I’ve lopped off a lot — A LOT — of text but because the old version had so much sex in it, I’m still stuck with some fairly spicy sex scenes.

The only reason why this bothers me is I have a little circle of people (very small group) who read my stuff and some of them have been turned off by how much sex the previous version of the novel had. So, I’m a little nervous.

And the sex happens in the first few chapters, which also bothers me. And, yet, while I’ll admit its rather lurid, it actually does serve some sort of purpose. At least, I believe it does.

I have said repeatedly that this novel is meant to be an homage to Stieg Larsson’s works and, as such, if people can handle some of those eye-popping scenes that he wrote, they can definitely handle the raunchy scenes I’ve written. And almost all of my scenes are between consenting adults, so that should give me some points.

But you just can’t please everyone. That’s why this is a passion project. I have a vision, a truth north and I’m going to follow it, no matter what.

Beginning To Feel Better About The State Of The Thriller

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

After a lot of back and forth and moving things around seemingly forever, I finally *think* I have a stable first few chapters of the 4th draft of the thriller novel I’ve been working on for years and years. I’ve put in a little bit of verbiage that eliminates the need for an entire novel going forward.

For that and other reasons, I think I’m down to four novels total in this specific project. I think. But the first novel is a murder-in-a-small-town novel. The second novel is a little bit more of a character study, but I think it’s interesting enough that people will want to see the plot I’ve come up with unfold.

I think. I hope.

But the point right now is to just finish the first novel. I also, as always, have a number of other novels I’m working on, but the thriller is the one that I’m most passionate about — it’s my passion project.

I KNOW, I just KNOW that I should focus on one of the other novels — most of them are scifi — because they’re more marketable in a traditional way. But, for the moment, I dun’twanna. I’m hoping to zip through the first act of this novel pretty quickly, knowing that soon after I hit the second act things are going to come to a screeching halt for a variety of reasons.

But I know this overall story so well, that hopefully I’ll be able to wrap up the entire thriller by no later than just under a year from now so I can turn around and start to query.

I’m trying to lean into AI as much as possible because I have no friends and no one likes me, but, lulz, AI can only do so much — especially with explicit scenes that it deems to raunchy to even look at.

Anyway. I’m having fun.

The Online Writing Community Is Where Dreams Go To Die

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

A consistent theme within the online writing community is it’s all pointless unless you’re a celebrity with a high powered editor. All anyone talks about is how this or that thing makes it impossible, just IMPOSSIBLE for someone like me to actually sell a novel.

You can’t have a female protagonist. You have to have a lot of followers social media. The list goes on. And that doesn’t even address the other problems people have had with my passion project like the fact that I switch POVs within chapters and use the surnames of characters to refer to them after a quote.

But, despite all this doom-and-gloom, I still have the itch to at least see how far I can get with this project. And I do have a number of backup scifi projects that I hope to work on in the coming days.

I say that, of course, then focus all my time exclusively on the passion project. Ugh.

Angst For The Social Media Presence

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I just saw on Twitter an author complaining about how they didn’t get their novel sold because they were told that they have a “poor social media presence.” This has rattled my cage a little bit because I don’t have that much of a social media presence.

Or, put another way — I’m very active on social media but, lulz, not exactly very popular. I suppose me talking about writing for years might be a “hook” that an agent or publisher might find interesting…but also they might do their due diligence on me and just think I’m a fucking kook.

But the point of all of this is just to see how far I can get in the process of getting published before it is absolutely clear it’s pointless. I haven’t gotten to the point where I actually begin to query yet — that’s the next big step — and that should probably, maybe happen in roughly a year.

If I fail totally, then, lulz, at least I learned a lot along the way. And I do have a number of other novel ideas that I want to work on. And, really, the thing that I wanted when I started — to be successful enough to run around NYC with 24-year–old women is kind of a moot point now, given hold old I am.

So, ANY success at this point in my life, ANY, would be of note.

Living In Oblivion, 2025

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I’m an absolute nobody in the middle of nowhere and so whenever I get a bit of buzz — even a tiny bit — I wonder what I’ve done. I seem to be getting a little bit of buzz of late. There are two options as to a reason for this at the moment: 1) people are talking about all my novel talk or 2) people are interested in my ranting against Trump and MAGA.

I do both so equally these days that I can’t figure out which one is the one that is generating the teeny-tiny little bit of buzz I seem to be generating. If I knew which one, I would lean into that element of things.

But, alas, I just write about what’s going on in my life — not much other than writing a novel and being aghast at the wabbling of the USA — and as such, lulz, I just will keep doing what I’m doing.

I have a core group of about five people who check this site a little bit more than I’d like — I’m not that interesting, guys. But I guess there is no downside to having “fans” if you live in oblivion and they are far away.

Sigh. I wish something “fun-interesting” would happen to me, like catching the attention of a Hollywood star (in a good way.) That would at least give me something different to think about.

‘Kill Your Darlings’

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I have managed to cut down my new first act of the new version of the thriller novel I’ve been working on for years to about 44 scenes or so. I’ve attempted to make the first act as simple as possible. I’m attempting to streamline things to the point that I don’t overwhelm readers with a lot of information.

All of this has reduced the word count down to something a little bit more manageable.

The novel is now going to be a far more a traditional murder-in-a-small-town type of affair. There is a lot more of a point to the novel, I think. Previously, the novel was something of a character study that didn’t seem to have much of a point to it.

I haven’t yet gotten to the part of the new version of the novel that is the second draft of the novel. Things may slow down dramatically at that point as I try to figure out how to essentially write a third draft to the novel.

But the key thing is — I now have a first act. Before, I just started the novel at a point in the story where there was a lot of information thrown at the reader. Now, there is an entire act before the murder happens, which is what I wanted.

This is similar to what happens in The Girl Who Played With Fire. I like that structure style for some reason. I like the idea of there being a whole act that leads up to the murder instead of just opening with a body being discovered or it happening in the first few chapters.

‘A New Hope’

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

Oh boy. In the name of not throwing too much at the reader at one time — and to made the first act more manageable, I’ve decided to yet again change the beginning of the novel in a dramatic fashion.

Now, a lot of things are either alluded to or happen “off camera” so things are smoother and not so overwhelming. But I do think I’m probably going to have to do a lot more rewriting than I would prefer.

And, all the same problems that this novel has relative to modern expectations still exist — I change POVs within chapters, etc. But my hope is that people who remember Stieg Larsson’s work will read it and say, “Oh, I get it, this is just like The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo.”

That’s the hope, at least.

And this remains a passion project. I really, really need to piviot some of my free time to the other, more traditionally marketable novels I’m working on. But there comes a point when I just have to shrug and say, “Either you like this passion project and want to read it, or you don’t.”

I have my vision for the passion project and I’m sticking to it, come what may.

Kook Tax Worries (Again)

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

Now that I’m back at it with the thriller passion project, I again find myself dwelling on the kook tax problem. In the past, whenever I’ve tried to get “serious” people to look at my novel, they inevitably roll their eyes and find some reason to beg off.

I’m just too big a kook in their opinion to be worth their time. And in the specific instance of this novel it’s not going to help that my heroine is a part-time sex worker. But the latest version of the novel tones that down a great deal and — I feel — the sex worker element isn’t nearly as gratuitous as it once was.

At least, I hope that comes across as the case.

My only hope, at the moment, is to lean into the use of AI to improve the novel instead of having to rely upon humans who think I’m a weirdo. But there is going to a come a point when I’m going to have to piviot to human eyes and things might get bumpy.

But I really do believe in this novel, even if I’m going to be old as fuck, even if I get the damn thing published. Unless the Singularity happens in the next few years and I can live to be 500, even if I get the success from this novel I so desperately hope for, the context will be a lot more different than when I started this project.

I won’t be able to run around with 24-year-old women like I had hoped, but rather, I will just be content that I actually proved the haters wrong and I hope I can start to work on other projects.

Now The Word Count Problem Is Back

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

The novel that my novel is meant to be an homage to, The Girl Who Played With Fire, is, as I recall, about 160,000 words. That is way, way too long for my novel for a number of reasons, the biggest being it would be my first novel.

And, yet, here I am — it definitely looks like I could blow past the 100,000 sweetspot of a first novel in a pretty big way.

I don’t know yet because I haven’t gotten that far in the process — I work in terms of scenes, not word count, so I don’t get around to finding out how many words something I’ve worked on is until pretty late in the process.

I have been very careful in the other projects I have been working on to do everything in my power to get them in at about 100,000 words.

Despite all that, I still am fixated on this passion project to the detriment of the other novels I should be working on. So, all this time I should be using on a scifi novel of about 100,000 words, I’m using on a thriller that could be close to 160,000 words.

Yikes!

But, like I said, I don’t know yet. It could be that the novel — which is probably going to be more than 100,000 words no matter what — could come in at something closer to 120,000 or maybe 140,000.

I’m really enjoying myself, though, with this passion project. Once I get into the second act, I think things are going to slow down a great deal ’cause I’m going to be working with the second draft material. I probably am going to have to root around in that second draft material a lot to have it synch up with all the changes I made between the second and third draft of the novel.